The Decline of the Picture Book

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I just read an article in the Seattle Times that made me desperately sad for the Picture Book. I love picture books. I have always loved picture books. I even collect some of the more beautiful ones. Among my favourites are The Butterfly Ball and the Grasshopper's Feast by William Plomer and Alan Aldridge (along with the subsequent books, The Peacock Party and The Lion's Cavalcade) and the most exquisitely illustrated copy of Cinderella. The illustrations in this last book, by Moira Kemp are wonderful, whimsical fancies of a stoic young woman who endures all kinds of adversity to finally reap her rich reward. Most of us know the story in one form or another, but this book doesn't pull any punches. Toes are chopped to fit into shoes, eyes are gouged by delicate turtle doves and Cinders gets her man. The story on its own is gruesome and true to the time of writing, but it's the illustrations that lift it to the realm of high art.

More recently, I've been following the extraordinary work of Shaun Tan who can certainly spin a tale with no words at all. This is a huge admission from someone who loves words. And I do love words. I love them so much that I have postgraduate qualifications in Linguistics. So, I think, that to admit that a book can hold its own, can be at least as valuable and wonderful with no words (!!) is truly meaningful and constitutes high praise from me.

I'm not sure why parents shy away from picture books for their children. Perhaps there's a notion that somehow picture books "dumb down" a child. I would beg to differ. In my mind, before words, there are pictures. Before we read and make sense of the world (and even after) we interact with our world through visual images. For those of us who are visual-spatial learners, this is even more the case.

Image via WikipediaSo, it seems to me that picture books are our first foray into using our imaginations and being creative. "But the illustrations are there for us!" I hear you cry. "How can we be creative and imaginative if the picturing is already done for us?". Oh that's easy. Just because we see a picture, doesn't mean that we accept what we see as the entirety of the story. If we did, how could we engage with art? How could we be inspired by La Gioconda or Klimt's The Kiss? Is it only me or do we all imagine what Leonardo da Vinci was saying to Lisa Gherardini to make her smile in such an enigmatic way? Am I the only one that wonders what led the two lovers to be sheathed in gold in Klimt's painting? And how is it that he is so clearly adoring of her and still only kissing her on the cheek, yet she looks so blissfully loved and content? Who are they? Are they lovers or have they come to some deep understanding of each other through years of marriage? What's their story? It's intriguing that nobody really knows, and at this point, I start inventing what I think should be their story.

For me, it's the same for picture books. In the absence of words, I create my own; my own story to go with the pictures so artfully created by others.

...and for the latest update, one of my favourite bloggers on books is also lamenting the decline of the picture book. I'm with you, Book Chook!

The Weight of Possessions

I was reading a quote that resonated with me today. It began;

"I do not seek possessions. Possessions possess the possessor.".

How prophetic, how axiomatic at a time when we're deciding a path for our future. Should we buy the big house and the fancy car and be happy for now? Can we make do with whatever we have and save for a comfortable (more than comfortable, a secure) future? Is the house we live in still meeting our needs? And what exactly are our needs anyway?

And therein lies the key...What are our needs in this modern world we live in? It seems easy, even flippant to say that our needs never change, that the basics; food, water, shelter are our only real needs. I think it downplays the fact that our needs are actually ever changing. It might seem frivolous or even pretentious to think that we actually need more than our parents needed; or our grandparents. However, I'm inclining to the thought that each generation's "needs" are different.

The basic human needs never change, of course, but if we assume that having our needs fulfilled is what makes us happy, productive members of society, then we have to concede that our needs differ with changing society and technology.

Are my children ingrates to suggest that they "need" an iTouch? Perhaps. However, given how much of education is now being delivered through recorded lectures/lessons on iTunes, given how many truly worthwhile educational applications there are, I'm not so sure anymore. I know that my parents thought it outrageous when I presented the argument to them, while at university, that I "needed" a computer, yet now, there are few homes we're familiar with that don't have at least one computer (and often many more!).

Does this justify rampant consumerism? No. I don't think so. Certainly not in my book anyway. I still believe in encouraging the children to save for things they really want. It's still important to LomL and me that they earn what they desire and that gratification is delayed, not instantaneous. Encouragingly, B1 and B2 are still as thrilled with toys from the thrift shop or $2 shop as they are with the big, expensive presents. I'm grateful that they still see the value in giving to those less fortunate in life or those with less means or access. I hope we're instilling these important values in them and I hope that they don't become possessed by possessions.

The Best Laid Plans...

Disaster! Our carefully and artfully planned Halloween party has had to be abandoned. A clash of events for that weekend means that the Halloween party is on hold for a year. There are disappointed children and an even more disappointed me.

Ah well, here are some pics of our efforts anyway...

Halloween Fever

It's the beginning of October...in Australia, a place where Halloween is not traditionally celebrated... and yet, in my family, we find ourselves in the grip of Halloween Fever. I'll admit that the house is not yet decorated and no invitations have yet been sent for the grand shindig for the 31st, but regardless, we're sweating the small stuff.

Today was consumed with the making of giant spiders and flies and their miniature counterparts, the construction of Frankenstein's Monster candle holders, the concoction of various witches' potions (including detailed labels) and the shrinking of apple heads.

Okay, I'm owning up to being the instigator of all this crafty silliness and just quietly, I'm rather pleased with the way it's all turning out (photos to come soon). It's also been a really lovely way to spend the second week of the school holidays and a terrific way to reignite the artistic spark in B1 and B2. Very satisfying indeed.

All was going well...rather too well as it turned out. All of that fabulous creativity was brought to a sudden and grinding halt by the rabbit needing to be rushed off to the vet. That was ok too. The rabbit didn't seem to mind the outing, I got to gather a plethora of animals around me (I swear I was channelling St Francis of Assisi) and B1 and B2 had a break from arty-fartyness.

The only one who seemed put out by it all was the dog, who didn't get to come to his favourite place. I'm not being sarcastic here. He loves going to the vet. Genuinely loves it. And why not? He's fawned over by the receptionists and Vet nurses and treated like a king by the Vet. I'd enjoy going to the doctor too if I was treated that well... and given a snack just for turning up!

LEGO Wars II - Revenge of the LEGO

I thought the war had been won and the LEGO was being regularly returned to the many boxes under the bed.

I thought my secret strikes on errant LEGO with the vacuum cleaner had sent a clear message to the opposition forces.

I thought my shock and awe tactics on the LEGO strongholds had decisively dealt with the problem.

Today I found undercover LEGO agents hidden in the bed sheets ... inside my washing machine... they were making -CLUNK CLUNK- noises and driving my washing machine to a grinding halt.

The battle continues...

Human Detritus a.k.a the Delights of Grocery Shopping

If you wish to see an example of the living dead, look no further than the supermarket on a Monday morning. Dissatisfied pensioners, the disenfranchised and the disaffected from all walks of life, gathering to share their misery. Unhappiness and hopelessness abound and along with them, the resultant mannerlessness strewn down every aisle. Is it any wonder then, that those interred to the staff of these establishments become equally zombie-like pits of moroseness?

The positives? There are positives. One is that it's wonderful fodder for the venting of one's spleen. Another is that it's a brilliant reminder of the road not taken. Had a rubbish day? Been sacked from your job? Think your life is unsuccessful or unproductive? Want to tell your boss how much of a space and oxygen thief he/she is but don't have the courage? Fear not. Simply pop into the nearest large supermarket, preferably in a low socio-economic status suburb, on a Monday morning and sharpen your tongue (and your most dour facial expression) for the onslaught.

There are many stellar lines to be employed in this environment, but my personal favourites are:

Oh, I didn't realise you were mute. Excuse me!

Clearly you don't have a full command of English or our customs. Allow me to assist you. In this situation you would normally say "excuse me" and I would then obligingly step out of your way.

And the perennial favourite...

Oh, are the words "excuse me" not part of your vocabulary?

The last one is closest to my heart. It's concise, succinct, everything your English teacher prayed for in your essays at high school.

And, in case you're wondering, yes I really do say those things... out loud.... at people.

Words Said Too Much and Not Enough

There has been tension brewing between B1 and B2 for some time now and it all came to a head today. Being boys, the end result was a bit of argy bargy, but it brought to the surface some really important issues.

B2 has recently gotten into the very bad habit of telling his big brother that he "hates" him whenever B1 does something annoying. The words are spoken with great emotion but little real feeling and absolutely no thought. B2 is very quick to blame B1 for anything that goes wrong in a Bart Simpson kind of way. LomL and I have been trying to deal with it with humour, ramping up the stakes, suggesting that "of course B1 was also responsible for all the ills of the world, both world wars, the extinction of the dinosaurs, global warming and the sinking of the Titanic". This has helped B1 see that we understand that B2's claims are outrageous and unfair.

Naturally, B1 has not been dealing with the situation well. It's hard to brush off statements like "I hate you!" when they're shrieked by your baby brother. B1's level of confusion has also gone through the roof since B2 gleefully screams his hatred at him one minute then runs up and asks him to play the next. It had all gone on far too long and today I finally blew my stack.

As I was explaining the situation to B2 and making him understand exactly how B1 felt each time these barbed words were spat at him, it made me realise just how much B1 loves his brother. Despite being stung with these words on a regular basis, despite hearing "I love you" from B2 only when prompted, B1 continues to entertain his little brother, continues to play with him, continues to protect him and help him. I felt so proud of him in that moment, so proud of the man he will one day be and so very privileged to be parenting him.

Even B2 finally got it when I asked him how he'd feel if his best buddy screamed "I hate you!" at him on a regular basis and pointed out that despite this, his big brother continued to play with him, try to do the things he likes and suggest activities.

We've made a pact now. "I hate you!" is NEVER to be spoken to another person in this house again. Not ever. We're allowed to hate a particular act or a particular behaviour, we're allowed to hate an outcome or even a situation. But never, never, NEVER are we to hate another person.

The old myth goes that if you say "I love you" too much, it loses its meaning. Rubbish, I say. You can never say "I love you" too much if you really mean it.

And there's the key. Too often words are spoken without thought for the meaning behind them. One phrase, three words... I hate you...I love you...both said too much without enough regard for their meaning.

The Library-Gestapo

The library has always represented a place of peace and sanctuary for me. I have loving memories of whiling away hot summer days holed up either in the school library or in the local library in the delightful airconditioning with a world of adventure on paper.


I introduced my boys to books and to the joys of the library when they were still very young and our local library was my sanctum during a brief stint at homeschooling. Those wonderful ladies, the librarians, kept my children excited, entertained and enthusiastic about reading and gave me a glorious and much needed break. The library was a safe place that I could go and I could take my children. It was a way of travelling through the world, having extraordinary adventures and meeting exceptional people without ever fearing for the safety of my boys.


The first school that my boys went to had another wonderful library, staffed with glorious ladies who valued reading, encouraged children to borrow wildly and generally believed that any use of the library would lure unsuspecting readers in.


It came as a rude shock to me, then, when yesterday I encountered the Library-Nazi and her SS second in command at the boys' current school. B1 had rugby training after school and I had thought that instead of wandering the school grounds for one and a half hours waiting for him to finish, B2 and I might use the time to do homework and read some books. Accordingly, I approached the head librarian to ask if we could use the library for this purpose and was told summarily that the library was not a "babysitting service" and if she were to allow me and B2 to use the library, then she'd have to let everyone in. Umm.. isn't that the point of a library?


Babysitting service? I hadn't asked her to care for B2 while I wandered off to go shopping. I was asking if we could sit at a desk, do homework and peruse the books in the library.


So what was her alternative to using the school library for this purpose? "There's a coffee shop down the road you could use". Mmmm... the point of using the library is that it's quiet and would allow us both to concentrate on what we're doing without being exposed to the volume of noise encountered in a coffee shop.


Did I voice my concerns? Well, yes. Some of them. But I'll admit that I was so dumbstruck at her attitude that I probably stood there doing a fine impersonation of a goldfish rather than calling her on her bizarre attitude.


So, the school library has gone onto the blacklist of Places I Do Not Expose the Children To and I'll be taking them to the local library more often instead. Thank goodness for the wonderful, hard-working and sensible librarians there!


An Addendum: http://curiousexpeditions.org/?p=78

Snakes Alive!

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At the school assembly on Friday, the acting principal issued a snake warning. Not a fire warning. Not a psychotic-murderer-on-the-loose warning. A snake warning.
He went on to describe the apparent army of slithering reptiles poised on the brink of overrunning the campus. What fresh hell were my children being subjected to? I vacillated between stifling giggles at his comic descriptions and stifling a scream at my absolute horror. My maternal instincts were shrieking at me to snatch up my children and run as fast as I could manage. No mean feat with a 10yo and an 8yo.


Living in the hills as we do, we're pretty used to watching out for a plethora of dangers. Snakes and bush fires are par for the course at this time of year. The boys' school, however, is not in the hills. It's a mere 15kms from the centre of the city - that's just a 15 minute trip. We're not talking remote Australia here.


Yet here we were discussing the drill should any of the children encounter a snake. The dugites had been breeding and there were now squillions of the slithery little fellows on the loose. So now we have to add "stop, run and tell" to the traditional "stop, drop and roll" safety routine.

Food for Thought

This week has been a bad one in terms of the amount of cooking I've done.  Cooking is usually something I am passionate about. It relaxes me, it calms me and it challenges me. I pour energy and love into the food that I make and the act of creating appeals to both my creative and my scientific sides. Cooking is something that engages me intellectually, physically and emotionally. So why has this week been so bad?

My week was thrown out by poor internet connections. Seems ridiculous doesn't it? This week, I realised just how much I treasure my connectedness to the rest of the world. It's my way of staying in touch with current events and with like-minded people. As a result of being so cruelly severed from my happy world by a poorly performing IP, I went into a tailspin of anxiety and my family were left to fend for themselves.

You'd think that would be ok. After all, LomL knows how to cook. He knew how to cook before we were married, has cooked periodically throughout our lives together and used to work in a pizza shop in his misspent youth. LomL, however, does not feel the same passion towards food that I do. He doesn't feel the sensuality of it; the touch, the smell, the textures, the combinations. He just doesn't feel it. So for him, a take-away dinner is the same as something lovingly crafted in the kitchen. Don't get me wrong. He loves my cooking and compliments me on it regularly, but he doesn't get the same joy from creating dishes that I do. So this week, we've had take-away and frozen pizza. I feel guilty and slightly nauseated just writing that!

LomL often jokes that my idea of a quick meal is to make hamburgers from scratch and I wouldn't know a TV dinner or packet meal if someone threw them at my head. Sadly, that's probably true. My inherent perfectionism imbues me with terrible guilt about not providing properly for my family if ever I'm pressed for time and find myself going for the quick option.

I've found that, over time, I've become something of a food-Nazi. Certain burger restaurants (I use the term loosely) are completely avoided by us. Not least of all because I worked there as a teenager and because I was served scrambled eggs with shell still in them...twice...in a row. Pft. I guess the up-side is that I knew they were real eggs and not the powdered stuff. Similarly, we avoid military chicken joints too. Not because we don't love the taste of the food, but because inevitably, every time I eat there, I end up with a terrible stomach upset. Which does make me stop and wonder what precisely is in that chicken to evoke my usually cast-iron stomach into violent paroxysms.

I buy fresh food which has been processed as little as possible. Where available I buy direct from farmer's markets and I choose my butcher because he can source all his meat locally. I don't buy fruit and veg from supermarkets, or meat and fish either. I limit the number of sauces or pre-prepared foods that come into the house and though I don't stop B1 and B2 from eating anything that they like, I do teach them about eating things in moderation. Increasingly, I'm finding there's a strong grass-roots movement that fits beautifully with what we're doing in our family. It brings me great joy when I hear influential people talking about the same things that we practice on a regular basis -  Jamie Oliver in particular.

I believe that food plays an intrinsic part in our functioning, our moods, our energy levels and our capacity to realise our potentials. I truly believe that. I also believe that food should be a pleasure and not just a fuel.

This week, though, it was as much as I could manage to throw something resembling food at my family and return to my mire of depression at the failing of my internet connection.

Giftedness and Underachievement: A Personal Journey

There's a popular misconception that if your kids are gifted, then they are always gifted at everything and that means that they're always high achievers. B1 has certainly put lie to this myth over the last few weeks. Well, over the last year, really.

B1 tested in the highly gifted range a few years ago. This is a child who began walking at 8 months, talking at 7 1/2 months, reading at 2 years and writing at 3 years.

Last year he had a less-than-ideal teacher who pigeon-holed him into a B-average student "if he worked hard". I don't know if she ever vocalised that to him, but she did say it to me and it took all my self-control to stop from leaping across the table and grabbing at her throat.

Regardless of whether she actually said the words to him or not, B1's a sensitive boy and emotionally, he got the message loud and clear. He took on board her feelings about him and I'm pretty sure he began to believe it. This despite all the messages of self-assurance, positive energy and great self-esteem that LomL and I were instilling in him (why are we always so ready to believe the worst about ourselves and so reluctant to believe the best?).

At the end of last year, he'd managed to scrape his way through the year, confirming to his teacher that she had him pegged just right. He was traumatised by her, and frankly so was I. If I was terrified by this ghastly woman based on the relatively few encounters I had with her, it's an absolute miracle that B1 managed to come out of that class as well as he did. How he didn't turn into a neurotic, jibbering puddle, I'll never know.

This year started well though. B1 landed a male teacher (the third one in his primary school life) and was thrilled. So was I. His teacher is the ex-sports master and is a positive, up-beat man who has an innate talent for nurturing self-esteem in young boys.

Over the last few weeks, however, B1's managed to fail both a maths test and a reading comprehension test (I'm still trying to comprehend how he managed that!) and come home with notes in his school diary about disruptive talking in class and a detention. Initially this completely baffled us. Hadn't he had time over the holidays to recover from last-year's teacher? Hadn't I managed to get his sparkling intellect back on track over the busy Christmas holidays? Didn't he have a wonderful, positive male teacher whom he admired this year? Where was this failure coming from?

After going through the initial stages (panic - understanding - sympathy - empathy) I finally arrived at the fifth stage (anger). After trapping B1 in the car on the ride home from school, I metaphorically shone the spotlight in his face and extracted the root cause of this failure. In a tumble of words and emotion it all came out. He had found himself a friendship cohort - a group of mates. These boys were all a little older than him (he's the youngest in his class having been accelerated early on in his education) and have parents who allow greater access to electronic media unsupervised than we do. B1, being the sensitive lad that he is, has always felt a little out of place when they talk about accessing You Tube unsupervised, or playing games like Halo (series) or Spore on their XBox.

It's hard to look cool in this crowd when your parents don't allow you free access to You Tube, don't own an XBox (the Wii is the closest we've got), don't allow you to play violent computer or electronic games and have a school-night TV ban. To compound his misery, B1 was also the only gifted kid in this group.

You can guess what's coming next. Yep. He's been dumbing himself down to camouflage how smart and capable he is in order to fit in with the other kids.

I was devastated when he told me. I've never intervened in his choice of friends. I've never told him who he should or shouldn't associate with, preferring to lead by example. Both LomL and I surround ourselves with people who are smart, funny, supportive and around whom we never feel we have to hide who we are. We have always been confident in our choice of friends and have worn our differences with pride - they are, after all, part of what makes us who we are. So when B1 told me he had been talking in class and not doing as well as he could so his friends would continue to like him, I felt like I had personally failed in parenting him well.

As a slight overachiever, I find it hard not to define myself by what I do; my job. As a stay-at-home mother, I have, over the years, developed what could be considered OCD when it comes to cleaning and am utterly obsessed with being a good parent. Parenting is my primary job, it's something I take great pride in and obtain immense joy from. So when my child tells me his self-esteem is so low that he feels he has to modify who he is in order to have friends, I take it as a personal failing. I have failed to instil a healthy sense of self and pride in him.

B1 is mortified at how disappointed LomL and I are that he's chosen to value himself less than he values acceptance by his friends. Since this dumbing down has been going on for some time, he's now missed important steps in his learning process and we're having to go back to basics. Luckily, he's gifted. Which means he's learning at an astonishing pace, so there's great hope that he'll be back where he should be very soon.

What I can't guarantee is that B1 will value himself more. What I can't guarantee is that this won't happen again in his life. What I can't guarantee is that he will finally see what his brother, his parents and the rest of his family and his best friend see - that he's an amazing, bright, funny, exciting, adventurous, brave, sporty, reliable, surprising, loquacious, eloquent, polite, well-mannered, handsome young man. I hope with all my heart that one day (soon) he will see, at least some of, what we see.

Until then, I continue to support him, love him, pick him up when he's down, dust him off when he's fallen and send him out into the wide world with my fingers crossed, my heart in my mouth and with an encouraging look on my face.

For more...Myth and Truth about Gifted Kids

Family Outings and Other Exhausting Events

This weekend has been one of many adventures. We started on Friday night (after swimming lessons of course) with a 45km trip to watch a film festival. "Madness!" I hear you shout. Indeed it would seem so. You must remember, however, that we live in the bucolic glory of the Perth hills, which entails an accompanying 30km trip to the city. We're pretty used to car trips that take a minimum of 20 minutes and are grateful for the reasonable speed limits that allow us to cover large distances in a relatively short time.

So Friday night began with the mad dash between swimming lessons and the film festival (here's the link if you're interested http://www.fti.asn.au/learn/mmr/), ensuring that children had first been bathed, were appropriately dressed for the chill that would descend and that we had food for a picnic dinner. Most normal parents would have dropped into the nearest fast food outlet on the way and picked up some fat-soaked, sugar-laden salt-lick to be washed down with tooth-decaying fizzy drink. However, I had watched Jamie Oliver's TED Wish recently (and here's the link for that http://www.ted.com/talks/jamie_oliver.html) and successfully managed to imbue myself with even more guilt than I thought possible. So vegetable pilau and tandoori chicken were our picnic fare. Besides, I figured my children should be subjected to the same kind of embarrassment that I was at that age. Turning up to picnics at Perth's outdoor arenas with tiffins filled with chapatis, curries or fried rice in the 1970s and 80s was tantamount to waving a banner and wearing large neon signs on our heads marking us clearly as the immigrants. As if the brown skins, saris and oily hair wasn't enough!

So having inflicted my childhood nightmares on my children, who remain oblivious to the cringe-worthiness of it all (and are actually quite proud of their difference!) we settled into the film show. All in all, it was great fun. There were some wonderful first attempts at film-making and the promise of another career and a different way of viewing the world was cause for real optimism.


Saturday night was another adventure. This time, with friends and their families. A fabulous evening of Salsa (dancing and music) at a local winery was precisely what we all needed. Each of the three mothers there had had a particularly awful week and had managed to argue with their husbands at some point in that time. Letting our hair down and kicking our heels up went a long way towards mending some of those buckling bridges. I haven't danced so much or with such abandon for many years. It was definitely enough to shock B1 and B2 out of their complacency that their parents didn't do "fun" things. I'm not sure they've seen me and the Love of my Life (LomL) dance together...ever! I do believe that it's always good to insert a moment of doubt into your children's lives. Just as they think they've got you pegged, go do something to surprise or even shock them. They'll gain new appreciation for you. And it's good for your soul too.

After two evenings like this, one would imagine that we'd done our dash for the weekend and were ready for a bit of R and R on Sunday. Did I mention that I've long suspected that LomL has ADD? So, far from resting on the day of rest, we hauled ourselves and my mother 130km north to the town of New Norcia. The drive out to New Norcia is through undulating land which is green and lush in Winter and Spring. It's very like driving in Tasmania, and how I imagine the English countryside to look. However, it's Summer in Perth. And a blazing hot Summer at that. The land is dry, parched, dusty and brown. It brings to mind Dorothea MacKellar's anthem, "I love a sunburnt country", in all its glory. This is the "never never" of International imaginings. For most Australians, the country we drove through is rural, reasonably populated and not that far from the city, but it never ceases to amaze me how these rural settings are considered remote by international visitors. Heaven knows what they'd make of places like Karratha, or Roebourne or Leinster! The tedium of our drive out to New Norcia was broken only by the excitement of passing the air-force base and the sight of an Emu. And the return trip was highlighted by a stop in traffic for a small bushfire beside the road.

The town itself holds many treasures. Not least of which is the thought of the austere gentlemen, the Benedictine monks, who set up life in what would seem to be the middle of nowhere at a time when it would have been even more remote from city life than it currently is. We were there on a day when the temperature hit 33C and it made me wonder how those gentlemen managed their daily lives and industry in those sweltering conditions. I marvel at the ingenuity and wherewithal of anyone who could successfully bake bread, mill flour, make wines, do laundry or turn wood in corrugated iron sheds in unmitigated heat.

I know the indigenous population has mixed (and very strong) feelings about the Benedictines and their influence in the area. And I don't marvel any less at the achievements of the extraordinary young indigenous people who worked the machinery, ironed, laundered and milled flour. I understand that these young people were separated from their families, languages and religions and that with the great advantage of hindsight, this was a phenomenal wrong enacted upon them. I don't doubt that we now live in greater privilege and in more enlightened times. However, walking around this part-town-part-museum, pickled for posterity, I was still astounded at how much industry was achieved in such exceptional adversity. There are lessons to be learned here. If nothing else, then the value of industry through adversity is one worth preserving. To quote my old school motto, per ardua ad alta... through work to the pinnacle.

Clothing Camouflage

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This is an old post from another blog site of mine. Apologies if you've already read it, but it still holds currency for me.

Today was one of those days... you know the ones, when you just can't make up your mind whether you feel like a yummy mummy or a frumpy lumpy? The compromise is terrific underwear (that makes you look like a jelly doughnut in a rubber band, but feel like Jessica Alba pole dancing all day) covered up by jeans and a tracksuit top. That way you know that you're so insecure about your looks that you're willing to take the requisite 3 hours and 4 bottles of Vaseline to get into the underwear, while the world thinks you're so comfortable with yourself that you're not bothered with how others judge your appearance.

It's urban camouflage at its paranoid best. The days of "putting on a face" while anaesthetising the boredom with gin and Valium have given way to the clothes neuroses that now dog us thirty- or forty-something mothers. That fine balance of presenting our best face to the world but not getting strap marks from a too-tight bra or blisters from too-tight Manolos is our perpetual Everest.

We're inundated with style tips, knowing our body shapes and dressing for them. We're berated by upwardly-mobile, pretentious, stick-insect women or, better yet, gay men for wearing the wrong clothes for our fruit-shaped bodies. Any attempt to remonstrate against this barrage of rampant consumerism is met either with dog-eyed pity and a pat on the head or with utter derision and a booking on the next round of The Biggest Loser.

There's no use in buying out of the fashion stakes either, it'll come back to bite you eventually. The one day you slink down to school in your unwashed trackpants and the t-shirt that was doing an impersonation of a dustball under the bed, attempting to throw the children out of the car at the kiss-and-drop before anyone sees you, will be the one day when the President of the Ladies Auxiliary button-holes you for a contribution of petit fours for the winter sports carnival while sneaking furtive glances at various high points of your attire. You know she now doubts your ability to whip up a packet muffin, let alone the Nigella-like delicacies you've been boasting of for the last week and a half. In desperation you make a lame endeavour to pull back your hair that has managed till now to look suspiciously like you're channelling Albert Einstein, and smooth over any part of your clothing you can reach without fear of discovering a new strain of flesh-eating bacteria. Suddenly the bravado with which you left home (I'm taking children to school, not strutting down a catwalk) completely deserts you as you mumble excuses, make wild promises about producing 300 miniture opera tortes by next week and screech out of the carpark narrowly missing the Headmaster and 6 Kindergarteners as they scuttle across the pedestrian crossing.

You make it out of there alive, reputation in tatters and swearing never to be caught out again... and knowing you've just been sucked back into the vortex of clothing camouflage.

The Great LEGO Wars and other domestic battles

In my house there is a great war raging. One that inevitably begins each morning with much shouting on my part and much negotiating on the part of B2 with the occasional intervention of B1. One that invariably ends each night with the questions "Amma, what have you done with my...[insert appropriate LEGO creation]? I left it right here this morning. Where have you tidied it up to?".

I'll admit that I do have periodic pangs of guilt that I'm stifling my children's creative instincts, however that quickly diminishes as yet another minute piece of LEGO becomes embedded in my foot while merely walking down the hallway. I've learned now to spot tiny grey LEGO pieces against the grey carpet while vacuum cleaning (to the amazement of both the children, who don't see them even when they're pointed out). My leaping and dodging skills have improved beyond measure and I defy anyone to say they have tougher soles on their feet than I. I'll concede that the Great LEGO Wars have improved my athleticism and visual acuity. What I won't concede, is that it is absolutely necessary to spread the plethora of LEGO items (built and unbuilt) to every room in the house.

A détente seems a long way off right now.

A moment in lateral thinking

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On the way to school today Boy 2 and I were chatting about the "wanted poster" that he had been required to do for homework the previous night. It was a wanted poster for the Iron Man. No not the cartoon character in the red and yellow metallic suit, the one more akin to the robot that lands on Earth from outer space in "The Iron Giant".

B2 had drafted a picture on his poster complete with rivets on the head and shoulder plates and had wanted to glue silver paper onto it to make it look more robot-like. We worked on it together and came up with a fabulous, realistic poster.

Unfortunately we had omitted to erase the pencil marks of the draft before we started. But it wasn't a complete loss. We decided to wait until the morning when the glue would have dried and to erase the pencil marks then.

Our morning was the usual round of chaos and apart from reminding B2 that the poster was there and he shouldn't forget it for school, I completely forgot about it.  It was only after we had arrived at school that it occurred to me we hadn't actually erased the original pencil marks. But all was not lost...

"You'll have to erase those pencil marks when we get into the classroom" I informed B2 with confidence.

"Oh, I've already tried that this morning and the glue had dried over the top of them, so I couldn't" he replied with great casualness.

"Oh no! What are we going to do?" I asked, genuinely panicked that I ruined his beautiful work.

"Don't worry. I just drew some extra lines and made it into another crane that reaches over the top of his head. See?" he piped up gleefully, showing me his poster.

I was truly impressed at his quick and lateral thinking. Not bad for an 8yo!

Shows that I have much to learn from my children.

Reminiscing

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I went to dinner at a family friend's house today. These are people I've known almost all my life and despite changes in our relationship statuses, the birth of children and other changing circumstances, these are people I continue to love deeply. Stepping into the house was like a surreal trip down the rabbit hole; a heady and confusing mix of my youth colliding headlong with my now. Having my children with me reminded me inexorably of the present, but in many ways the evening was like so many I had spent there over the years.

In so many ways I felt like a child still, comforted by the consistency of the house, the food, the people. Perhaps it's an illusion, but it seemed to me that these wonderful people, though older, were still essentially the same as they had always been. They were still the loving, comforting, welcoming people I had always known and loved. And now they were generous enough to extend that warmth to my own family - not the family they had always known, but the one I have created with my husband. How blessed I feel to have them in my life.

I know this is a bit of a departure from my usual thought stream, but it's on my mind at the moment. As I get older, I discover that I have less patience for those who do not add value to my life or the lives of my family. I'm also finding that I truly treasure and cherish those who do make life such a joy. So to them, I say "thank you".

Romulus, My Father

Cover of Romulus, My Father

I just watched "Romulus, my Father" with its exquisite storyline and stellar performances from all the cast. What an extraordinary film; beautifully crafted, superbly acted and artfully directed! It's the kind of film that makes me want to find the book and read it. Here, check it out... http://www.romulusmyfather.com.au/index.html.

The movie brought into stark relief the erratic, variable relationships each parent has with his/her children. It made me marvel at how children, more often than not, survive the destructive relationships and thrive in the loving ones. It also reminded me that children are intrinsically optimistic. Despite exceptionally difficult, tragic or abusive relationships with parents, children so often still seem to be able to find love, connection and moments of great joy. I'm astounded that as adults, they are able to look back and find treasured memories of their childhoods - childhoods that those of us with privileged lives are deeply saddened by.

A reminder that truly, "hope springs eternal in the human breast" (thank you Mr Pope!).